I'm not afraid. I have to put that into your head that I'm not afraid of that stupid dog. Must I go into that house and kill him. Every morning, evening, night is always there that barks and wakes me up on time. I need sleep. I want to rest, I'm home and I can not. But if I did I'd stay in a coma for a year! Since I have witnessed this terrible accident I can not more. As soon as I close my eyes I see that child thrown across the road from an asshole who has "confused the red and green." Just when, after so long, I was able to put one foot out the door. I've been there and I know firsthand what it's like losing a son to the usual bastard ... this is why my wife and I have divorced. When you steal a piece of your life, everything is falling apart. We are beginning to blame each other, we harass the usual if and but instead to stay close and be strong with each other.
Edward year would have turned 9 years: a good party with all his friends and red balloons, he asked. No one was bored with him, was the center of attention, the usual buffoncello already a child is destined to become a ladies man, secured with electronic games, football and the usual things that we like boys. On Sunday, then, was sacred. We went to the lake together, my wife organized the picnic and the two of us were delighted when fishing. After a day we had little or nothing, between lunch, playing football and hide and seek, but he took on the same screen and brings it to his grandfather, now elderly, was no longer with us. How beautiful! The dream of every father is to have a son with whom to share their passions and ambitions, counsel him and defend him for the first girlfriend when the mother does not want to study. I had had this luck that someone has thought well to take off.
Since it is no longer with me, everything is falling apart, the marriage, work, sleep, life. Sometimes it is so difficult to get out of this bed, open the window and see that road. Just think 'if I want to walk on. I no longer want to live and fight to keep going every day. I will stay here between the covers and these four walls: the only place in which Edward would be safe, pampered and protected by the love of mom and dad.
If only that day had not come to see me in the office ....
VALENTINA STAR TASSIN
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